I have had an energised week. There’s been lots on and not much time for myself, however I have enjoyed it in the most part. I have been very active with exercise and also busy with work and creativity. I have had my son’s 9th birthday occupying most of the weekend, so all in all, jam packed.

I have been thinking about how we protect others around us. They say it’s good to share your problems, but I have come to realise that in some of us, there is a desire to over think, over share to point of self obsession. I am guilty of this and have been working on suppressing my need for attention. Constantly talking about yourself is draining for others and in some way selfish. It’s well established that in conversation, those who just talk about themselves incessantly not only distance themselves from others, but also fossilise their destiny. If you say it, it will come true. I keep hearing the saying, the universe gives you what you put in, and I believe it.

And so I’m pulling myself away from negativity. This starts with not judging myself or others and letting go. Live and let live. Too many people consume themselves in others business. They bathe in the despair of others, distracting their own demons from view, killing time and avoiding their pitfalls. It’s easier to point the finger, when there are more pressing matters with yourself. It takes real courage to look at your real pain and address it. But when you do, it is so rewarding. This past year has been a revelation for me and all because I finally kicked the booze.

I am currently looking for my next move. I’ve completed my reggae album and am looking for an artist to lace the tracks, but altogether that could take time and will mostly be down to finding an artist who shares my vision and then recording sessions, which is mostly straight forward. I need something new to sink my teeth into, and as such, am pondering my next move. I will likely continue writing more new reggae beats, but in all honesty, I need something more than that. I’m not quite sure what’s that is yet, but Im open and test to receive. I love the idea of being a conduit for creativity, being curious and waiting for inspiration. I know it will come. Patience and play will present me with ideas. But there is this void that occupies me. I’ve been reading about this in my book I’m reading, in the realm of hungry ghosts, where addicts constantly use drugs to escape this feeling. We all suffer from it, but addicts more than most. The sense of non achievement, chasing something that will make you complete. Contentment with life. In truth, you can never be truly whole or at peace, but knowing that and finding your balance can help us live side by side with imperfection, and so I’m trying not to over judge, indulge in negativity, or allow the demons to grab hold of my mind in this area.

Christmas is fast approaching and I’m looking forward to the usual offerings and outings so it’s a good time to recline and unwind. I’ve placed a lot of pressure on myself this year, so should reward myself with some downtime and space over the coming weeks. It’s vitally important to me to value everything I accomplish now. I suffered so much in the past from placing too much pressure on myself to achieve to the detriment of progress and development, blinkered to the present and missing life. This Christmas, I’m taking it slow and savouring the good times. As my parents get older, I don’t know how many we have left altogether before the mantle is handed to us and we become the grand parents. The eldest of the generation below is approaching 18 and who knows, one of us soon could become a grand parent which tells you something. Life moves so quickly. It’s important to stop once in a while and realise how lucky you are. In my case, I’m so fortunate to have all those around me, the comfort of my life, good health and freedom to pursue my passions.