Addiction
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Week 52 – Reflection
This journey has been the most life challenging and revealing experience of my life. I never thought giving up alcohol and drugs would be so complex, positive and life changing. It’s just the beginning for me and I still have… Continue reading
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Week 51 – Healthy body, healthy mind
I’m playing tennis and visiting the gym frequently, I really look forward to each visit, the training, getting fit and healthy, along with all the little social encounters. It has been of tremendous value, not only for making my body… Continue reading
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Week 49 – Patience in the sands of time. Accepting my nuances and nursing my anxieties
It’s been a relatively calm week for my birthday. This time last year I was drinking every day, heavily, going from one party night to the next. This year has been a very different affair. Just lunch with my Mum… Continue reading
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Week 44 – Loneliness, love and life in the city at Xmas.
It’s the week before Christmas and I’m reflecting on how fortunate I am to have family and stability in my life. Although not perfect, I know that through a wide angled lens, life has been generous to me. Most people… Continue reading
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Week 42 – Souk up your life and smell the spice
I feel as if I’m waiting for something to come along and bring me back to reality, but honestly my purple patch continues. Is this how normal life should be? Alcohol had slowly crept up on me and divided my… Continue reading
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Week 40 – You only have one life, so do I.. savour the good times and give space for love.
I have had an energised week. There’s been lots on and not much time for myself, however I have enjoyed it in the most part. I have been very active with exercise and also busy with work and creativity. I… Continue reading
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Week 39 – Acceptance and Peace. The sign of my times.
I am sorry to anyone reading or following this blog for not always posting on the same day each week. I will try to improve that! I’m currently 1 week behind where I should be, so I’m double posting this… Continue reading
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Week 32 – Why did it all begin? Understanding your beginnings and finding balance. Forgiveness and Peace.
For my entire life I have listened to logic, science and fact when making decisions, only not with alcohol or drugs. I am trying to learn why and understand my past. I am currently reading ‘In the realm of hungry… Continue reading
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Week 27 – From here to beyond. Your potential is unlimited, if you can let go…
So it’s been 2 weeks since one of my friends passed away. He was a fantastic person, who lived his life the right way. He ate well, he didn’t smoke and barely drank. The saddest thing about what happened to… Continue reading
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Week 26 – 6 months alcohol free. Reflection on my journey
So I have been free from alcohol for 6 months. What did I expect at this juncture looking back? To be honest, when I started this journey I didn’t think I would last 6 months, or at least I thought… Continue reading
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Week 25 – The scenic route is sometimes the smartest
To react or not react that is the question. It’s become quite obvious to me for some time now that it’s best not to jump to your first conclusion and voice your disdain in a heated argument. I’m talking about… Continue reading
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Week 23 – Precious bonds, golden threads and tangible vibrations
This week we have been preparing to embark on our adventure around France. There have been tasks to tie up in the final remaining days, the usual admin before leaving this workaholic isle. The pressures associated with human kind still… Continue reading
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Week 22 – The cycles of life, enjoy the ride and don’t be hasty
I feel the walls breaking down around me, much like old layers of skin, peeling away one by one. My freedom from my once troubled soul is underway, and slowly I recognise a new confidence and strength growing from within.… Continue reading
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Week 17 – Perfectly imperfect
We had a lovely holiday this week in Bude with friends. The weather was a wee bit drab, but nonetheless quintessentially British. We filled our days with walks on the beach, on and off sunbathing, board games and daily feasts,… Continue reading
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Week 16 – The Placebo effect
My learning and growth continue to embed themselves into my character. This week my partner told me about a conversation she had with another parent at the school who said to her that they noticed a real softness with me.… Continue reading
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Week 15 – Triggers and projection
This post is about understanding your triggers and what not to do when you experience them. Continue reading
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Week 14 – The Devil within
I am gaining trust in myself. I am developing a calm resilience within. My only expectation is that there are none. That gives me comfort, I am open. I trust whatever presents itself, my intuition that follows, accompanied by a… Continue reading
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Week 13 – Balance
The roller coaster has ceased to roll. Ups and downs are no more. The thrill of dopamine pumping through my veins followed by depression and negativity have dissipated. The highs may not be as high, but overall there is so… Continue reading
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Week 12 – Eddie’s love bus
Week 12 has arrived and is a landmark in the timeline for most addicts. The 12 step program normally revolves around this time span, and is used as a point to review reflect and make next steps for long term… Continue reading
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Week 11 – Blinded by love
We’ve arrived back in London and it is safe to say that we’re not overjoyed to descend into the gloomy, concrete jungle. The weather is overcast, cold and blustery. Welcome to Blighty. I try and recognise the love for this… Continue reading
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