Addiction
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Week 10 – Volcanic heights
We have arrived at the top of Reunion Island to a volcanic settlement called Cilaos. It is a picture-esque village situated in the center of collapsed volcanic crater. It’s breathtaking here. Lush green leaves and the sounds of birds inhabit… Continue reading
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Week 9 – Out on the tiles
We have arrived at Reunion Island. It is absolutely stunning here, 30 degree heat, beautiful sunshine, incredible scenery all around. The streets are adorned with beautiful artwork, hand painted by locals. Music and the smell of barbecues seep from alternate… Continue reading
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Week 8 – Ownership
I think about drinking now and how it made me feel, from the first sip of an evening to the last. It makes me feel sick. It’s difficult to explain, but that feeling of anticipating a drink at the end… Continue reading
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Week 7 – Breakthrough
I am becoming more aware of myself and my emotional state. In the past when I would get upset, angry or confrontational, I would entirely see it as injustice happening to me. I can now see how the cumulation of… Continue reading
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Week 6 – Relapse and reward
I’ve been moving forward very well in all areas of my recovery. Mindset, physical health, consciousness, mood, diet, but not sleep. Ironically I sleep less than when I was drinking, which was approximately 6 and a half hours a night.… Continue reading
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Week 5 – Normalisation
At the end of week 4 I had planned a meal at my favourite local restaurant by way of a celebration. At the time of booking I wasn’t sure if I would be going with my partner, my brother, a… Continue reading
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Week 4 – Who am I?
This week I have a very busy time at work. It will be a welcome distraction from the overwhelming thoughts running through my mind. I’m trying to live in my body, rather than head. Meditation is helping me compartmentalize various… Continue reading
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Week 3 – Reflection
I have been going to the gym nearly every day this week. I am establishing a routine away from alcohol. The cravings are subsiding, I’m losing weight fast and finding myself attractive again. I had steadily put on weight over… Continue reading
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Week 2 – Adjustment
As week 1 came to a close, I had the unenviable task of going to my first social engagement on day 7. Although it was with my full Family I absolutely dreaded it. I knew that it would involve everybody… Continue reading
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Week 1 – Realisation
I’ve had another awful row with my partner. It is clear to her that my love affair with alcohol is to blame, I’m not so certain. This has been the main source of arguments throughout our relationship. My partner has… Continue reading
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Acceptance
It has been 7 weeks since my last drink. I wanted to start this blog as a way to help me reflect and understand more about my journey through abstaining from alcohol and perhaps help others who are thinking about… Continue reading
A Second Chance 