Cee Russ
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Week 52 – Reflection
This journey has been the most life challenging and revealing experience of my life. I never thought giving up alcohol and drugs would be so complex, positive and life changing. It’s just the beginning for me and I still have… Continue reading
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Week 51 – Healthy body, healthy mind
I’m playing tennis and visiting the gym frequently, I really look forward to each visit, the training, getting fit and healthy, along with all the little social encounters. It has been of tremendous value, not only for making my body… Continue reading
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Week 50 – Stability returning. No sorrow in its absence, my confidence builds.
Is it possible to find balance once the damage is done? I wonder if you are always in recovery. They tell me so. When I attended Grow Live addiction centre they told me that it was possible to undo all… Continue reading
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Week 49 – Patience in the sands of time. Accepting my nuances and nursing my anxieties
It’s been a relatively calm week for my birthday. This time last year I was drinking every day, heavily, going from one party night to the next. This year has been a very different affair. Just lunch with my Mum… Continue reading
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Week 48 – tranquility, balance and peace
This week has consisted of hitting the gym harder than usual, nestling back into work and a lively party night out with friends. It has been good to get some routines flowing again and plan some good times ahead. Live… Continue reading
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Week 47 – Back to work following New Year and approaching a year sober
So new year has come and go. I had a really good time, despite being the only sober person at the party. To be fair many of our guests drank sensibly, so it was not a raucous affair, unlike some… Continue reading
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Week 46 – Fear of Missing Out, understanding myself and releasing the pressure
As I get older, I realise that we’re pretty much separated into two camps in life as adults. One that had children and one that didn’t. Society says that the ones that had children will be happier, but I’m not… Continue reading
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Week 45 – Xmas and a time for reflection. Can I move on, despite not being able to change the past?
So Xmas has been and gone, it was a good one, with no dramas, no cravings and of course no alcohol. However my sleep is not great and I remain restless. I am continuing to dream about work colleagues despite… Continue reading
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Week 44 – Loneliness, love and life in the city at Xmas.
It’s the week before Christmas and I’m reflecting on how fortunate I am to have family and stability in my life. Although not perfect, I know that through a wide angled lens, life has been generous to me. Most people… Continue reading
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Week 43 – Time rich and roll on Xmas
As the weeks roll by, I continue to wallow in expectation. I frequently find myself dreaming about scenarios, what could be, what will be and what may. I try to remind myself not to judge inward too much and that… Continue reading
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Week 42 – Souk up your life and smell the spice
I feel as if I’m waiting for something to come along and bring me back to reality, but honestly my purple patch continues. Is this how normal life should be? Alcohol had slowly crept up on me and divided my… Continue reading
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Week 41 – So fresh and so clean. Wash away with the past, the future is yours.
Tapping into my sub conscious and allowing instinct to guide me. This is my attempt at the new me. I am learning how to let my immediate sensations lead me, moment to moment. I’m more impulsive, I love living like… Continue reading
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Week 40 – You only have one life, so do I.. savour the good times and give space for love.
I have had an energised week. There’s been lots on and not much time for myself, however I have enjoyed it in the most part. I have been very active with exercise and also busy with work and creativity. I… Continue reading
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Week 39 – Acceptance and Peace. The sign of my times.
I am sorry to anyone reading or following this blog for not always posting on the same day each week. I will try to improve that! I’m currently 1 week behind where I should be, so I’m double posting this… Continue reading
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Week 38 – Belonging and what it means to us
When I began my journey I didn’t really know what I was doing. All I knew was that something had to change. I had to start. That was the key. A crisis finally got me moving, but altogether I knew… Continue reading
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Week 37 – Alive to live, but with a murky backdrop
It’s feeling like autumn. The school term is well underway and is in full swing. Next week is half term, and with my partner taking the kids to Paris for the week, I will be home alone. A perfect opportunity… Continue reading
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Week 36 – Discovering who I am, overcoming loneliness and opening new doors.
For years I was going out by myself. Well into my forties. I was hypnotised into chasing that adrenalin rush, that first hit of excitement and building on it. It wasn’t so much the alcohol and drugs, but the feeling… Continue reading
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Week 35 – Creativity and impulsiveness. Let your subconscious flow.
One of the reasons that I love being creative is that I can escape the emotional part of my brain. Rather channel it, through a creative outlet such as music, drawing, writing etc. I have discovered that, channelling creativity has… Continue reading
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Week 34 – Perfectly inconsistent. My only constant is change.
The ups and downs of life continued to circle. I should accept that this is life for everyone else too. No one has it perfect. Up until recently, I’ve dreamt that if I did the right thing and worked hard,… Continue reading
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Week 33 – Not as strong as I think
This week I have been struggling with loss. First it was my car, then my job and finally my tooth… Since my car was stolen, almost 3 weeks ago, I have failed to let go. It’s not the money that… Continue reading
A Second Chance 